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10/16/2008: "Alone At Last"

While lying in bed last night hoping the Tylenol PM will kick in, I suddenly realized that for the first time in 62 years I'm actually alone and not having to cater to someone elses needs. I can do what I want, when I want to, can eat anything I want, even popcorn for dinner if that's how I feel, don't have to go to the store every day, I can dance all over the house without having to be quiet, I can go to work or not without waiting for someone else to get ready or rely on anyone else but myself. It's a feeling that's gonna take a little getting used to.
When my youngest daughter was in such a hurry to move off the Island to be with her boyfriend in another city, I felt abandoned although she did come back when I needed her the most, and if she ever needs to come back for any reason I would never regret letting her because if I had felt welcome at my parents my life might have been completely different, but for now I'm going to make the most of my freedom by working on changing my life. There just has to be a better way than mowing lawns for a living.