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10/08/2008: "Vote Yes on I-1000 (Death With Dignity)"

Paul Newman died of lung cancer a few days after my husband died. I'll bet that Joanne didn't have to watch him struggle with every breath and that he was able to receive medication that eased him from this life. Now I see Martin Sheen in ads asking Washington residents to vote No on I-1000, calling the initiative (Assisted Suicide). Is he even a resident of this state or did they pay him just because he's an actor and they think the people will do as he says? I wonder if he ever had to watch a loved one die a slow and painful death just because it's illegal in that state? My husband begged for pills before he died. I asked him what pills and he said any pills, so I gave him his prescribed morphine dose of one 50 mg. and one 15 mg. I promised myself that if he was still alive in the middle of the night, when I was the only one with him, I was going to empty a full bottle of the liquid morphine into his mouth and hope he could still swallow, but he gave up his fight shortly after the 2 pills but not before gasping for each breath. It was horrible to watch. I was thankful that I didn't have to carry out my plan to help him leave us and his struggle to breathe.